.. So a lot has happened sens i last posted.. Something big happen to me in may.. Something that turned my hole look on life around.. No i didn have a near death or anything like that.. I went to jail can't really say why.. Nothing really bad but spent a week in lock up. In that week i didn not speak to any one i knew.. So on a Friday i got bailed out by my mom there were two other people involved with it.. But any ways so my mom told me i had to move back down here to troy... Josh wasnt to happy about it..
On the outside i put off like i wasnt ether. But on the in side i was jumping up and down like a little kid in a candy shop! So when i got down here.. I finally got time to think what had been bugging me for About 4 months give or take.. My true feelings for josh has changed... I didn love josh like i had for all most three years.. They had changed... I do want to to say i cant help what happen and i a m sorry for how it happen..
Dont get me wrong i still love him but i am not in love with him... So when i thought on it i finly told him... Lets just say he didn take it well... But now me and him are very good friends were like brother's.. in way.... So fast forwed to now I got my best friend (Wolf ) back in my life got my little sister and my old friend eden all back in my life and found a new one Carolyn!! And i am staying with my Bestie Amber!!!! Moms still with ronnie aka why i cant live with her... But i am not letting everything that has been going wrong in my life get me down..
See before i moved in with amber i was staying at Roonies First x wife's house she was NICE!! But ronnies son Little Ronnie is a meth head and a theft who was also on the run.... So sens i am out on bail i had to live in fear that i wound go back to jail if the bounty hunters busted in and found me there... I have had so much fun and broke out of my shells sens i been back down here!! I learned a lot being with josh some good some bad... So in a way you can say i am back were i started but this time i have family that i didn have before with me ever step of the way!! I still got a long road ahead of me... Got to get on my feet and all that. But for the first time in my life i am not scared that i will fail at it....
I am happier then i have been in three years.. I still get my self in to some very complicated situation... oh boy do i. My main thing is my Damn heart and head going to war.. But like i sed some times we have to go though HELL or go to jail for everything to turn around for the best... So if you were to ask me if i could go back and changes one thing wound i?? The answer to that is no...
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