Something You Thank Will Never Happen Happens....

Something you thank will never happen to your family is brain cancer.... You see it on TV or hear your friends talk about happens to one of there family have it. But what do you do when it happens to your family? "No is not me " But what do you do? Its like wait what? Is this really happening? Its kinda funny in a way because you spend your hole life hearing about it but you never thank it will  happen to your family! That's what i thought when my mom told me that my aunt Tammy have been having killer headaches and the doctors did a scan on her and she had two tumors on her rite side of her brain..... Not only did she have killer headaches her speech is  slurred... So the test came back and the tumors were cancerous... So      
she had to have brain surgery.... My family wanted in the wanting room "i was at my fiances house were i live" i wanted and they took her back at 1:00 and got though at 5:00. So we were hoping for good news but as i called mom and asked how did it go she was crying and told me that when the surgeons went to cut the tumors out she started having seizures and they could not get them out.... So in 4 to 6 weeks when she gets stronger they are going to try and again and God willing they will get them! But shes doing well and i just wanted to say That my aunt Tammy is strong and that i love you aunt Tammy and you will get though this!!!!!!!!! You have your hole family By your side!!!!  

Crimson Angel.... Not I do not cut just a poem!

           The blade.. How i miss your sweet siren song  

calling me..                      One slices the stress fades away...                          Two slices the screams fade a way....                                    Three slices the world goes black....                            I am home as the crimson angel greets me...                                     Do i sign the book of blood...?
      Do i give in to this demon i have fought with for so long...
             Do i open my veins.. My life line and let him feed..                              Do i let the dam break and let the Crimson river flow            
                          freely with out limitations                            Or do i throw away the key to the dam and let the       
                                                                  Demon starve....                       Let the Stress and Screams continue to                                 torment me for the rest      
                              of my waking life...

Energy and a New Sight!

I felt the earth,sky and all of the universes Energy to night like i did when i was on my path! Thanks to josh for helping with re open my self to feeling it. I experienced something i have never knew existed? I saw josh using Gaia's energy and saw the vibrations of  his energy the out lining of him! When i was taking in the Gaia's energy i saw the vibrations of the kittens and said the kittens are up here josh saw one of them run by!!
 Then when we got back to the apartment josh had a very good experience "BUT THAT'S HIS STORY TO TELL" But he took my hand and asked me to visualize a brick wall at the same time he was sending me special energy then he asked me what i saw? I saw a door with a light coming from be hide it "he sed open it" i tried to open it but it did not budge So i willed it to open when it did i saw a GOLD and SLIVER light josh told me to to let it come to me and when it did A woman A appeared the feeling i felt was so warm, inviting,safe and motherly it was the MOTHER GODDESS!!!!!1 I felt one with her as she told me something but i could not hear her! But i feel a wake i feel REBORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a new SIGHT on my life and my path!!!!